Captive FREE Part Two
I know that God had an angel there that night, even though I didn't realize it at the time, I did not take it any further than I had in my intro paragraph. I went to work the next day and started making work number one. That slight transition away from my idol started to steer me in the right direction.
Later that year I was invited by my parents to Point Fest, a Christian music festival held at Cedar Point. The band For King and Country had a message for girls/women - which you are worth so much more than how others treat you; it was at the height of their priceless movement. It was this moment I saw my true worth in Christ, I was worth more than gaining a boy’s attention, worth more than being cheated on, worth more because I have a Creator who loves me. It hit me hard, knowing that I was worthy of being truly loved. Casting Crowns was the next band up and their song 'Just Be Held' was when I made the decision to not do life on my own anymore, my life was now in God’s hands. Having my brokenness shown, the realization of worth - what God saw, then I felt God’s comfort and warmth wrap around me during this song, truly the Holy Spirit was working and my life transformed.
A couple months after this revelation I met my now husband (without looking or pursuing a relationship at this time). We met at a young adult group, and both had given our lives to Christ that previous summer. I remember being very up front with him about my past, not sure how he would react… but I wanted to be transparent, I knew this was different than any other relationship. He easily forgave what I had done in my past and this was a much healthier relationship - with keeping God at the center. God truly knows your heart's desire once you give Him your attention and your idol(s). God is so so good! I was reading recently in Hosea and recognized my previous life as that promiscuous young woman. I teared up with gratefulness that my husband was so ready to forgive, it lined up so similarly to Hosea and his wife. I was so unfaithful to God and to my future spouse, and so much of me realized how unworthy I was of that forgiveness. But there was/is good news from this - we are sinners offered overwhelming grace!
Lord, I pray that as I continue on this journey of living under your guidance, that you help me to share and pass this down to the next generation (especially to my two wonderful daughters) of the love and lesson(s) that you have shown me (Joel 1:2-3). You are such a good good God, I thank you for all you are doing and continue to do in and through me. Your will be done on earth as it is in heaven.
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