Growing In Faith
Genuine healing is like peeling an onion. This is why true healing takes time. We first start dealing with the outer papery layers that are actually not even the true onion itself. We may pull off those layers and think we're finished. However, the truth is, we are just barely getting started. Each layer that is dealt with gets down a little closer to the core injury. And just like peeling an onion can cause tears, so does removing each layer and getting to the core of our hurt. And emotionally, we instinctively sense our vulnerability and are afraid. The temptation to quit and run can be very strong. Remember the armor of God: There is no armor for our back. Running means we are wide open to enemy assaults. When we finally reach the core injury, there is no longer the need for false healing. We are free!
Layers can look many different ways.
The first layer—figuring out and telling someone else why this particular happening devastated you so badly. We have to feel the feelings before we can put words to it. We have to admit that we are hurting.
Another layer—Recognizing and “owning” our hurt. Admitting that we were hurt and not making excuses or justifying our actions or the actions of others.
A layer—Understanding that the use of anger, fear, bitterness, or frustration doesn’t work in dealing with the pain and hurt.
All through peeling off the layers there is the deep inner fear of revealing your true feelings, of taking the risk of coming out from behind your wall, of being honest about your feelings.
After we let God help us peel off many layers, we can (and will) finally reach the core injury. God can do it, through the peeling of the layers, acknowledge our wounded areas, and learning what was really true...After that, true healing!
We have a choice. Be truly healed? Give into fear? Keep yourself "safe"? Try to heal yourself? Keep that onion on the counter and avoid the tears and discomfort that go along with peeling it? Or believe and trust that God will be there with us, when each layer is getting peeled back, to strengthen and comfort us.
When we, on purpose, submit to God and let go of the need to control, and “trust and obey” even when we don't feel like it, something happens on the inside. We reach the core injury.
Working through and peeling off all these layers represents “walking toward your pain”.
This is the path of healing, of peeling off the layers. The fear of rejection is the deepest fear of all of us! It’s so easy to believe Satan’s lies...that if people knew our real pain and knew how broken we were they would be scared off! (Satan is very real!) The fear of possibly finding out I really am broken, is so scary we’d rather go anywhere than there! Just leave the past alone!
God is our counselor. He may put certain people in our lives, but it is important that we stay connected with Him. Even when it is tough, when you have no clue what the next step is going to be, hang in there with Him. You may not know that there is light at the end of the tunnel and it may be all darkness to you. But God knows what He is doing. Do not quit before you reach the core injury!
We can’t completely heal until we bring every wound out into the open. That’s hard to do. Some wounds may be only known by us. It’s an act of trust to open up and acknowledge our deepest pain.
I wish we could all live in a safe world where no one was abused or took advantage of, or hurt one another…but we can let God redeem what Satan would use to destroy us with, by choosing God’s Ways....by choosing to let God heal us.
We don’t have to stay stuck in our hurts and pains that keep us from knowing the truth and from living the abundant life Jesus died to give us. We can heal...And God is in the healing business! Every layer we pull off and expose, the peace of God comes in a little more to dwell in our hearts!!