Months ago, I took another journey into the book of Psalms. Not only am I always amazed at the beauty of the writing and the encouraging message, but I sought to have more understanding of the background. Who and when and why was it written? Even more, I wanted to listen to the heart of the author, both earthly and heavenly.
Like many who have read the book of Psalms, Psalms 23, 91, 121…are the ones I can apply most in my life. Yet, Psalm 139 touches my heart deeply. It simply begins with “O, Lord…” – whispering to One whom David (the earthly author) loves with his soul – he was a man after the heart of God. Am I deeply in love with my Lord Jesus, like David? Do I whisper “Jesus, o Jesus…” so that the Lord may call me a woman after the heart of God? Psalm 139 is a beautiful love story from God and the response David has for Him. I want to be close to Jesus and have intimacy with Him just like David.
This is the way I read Psalm 23 and apply to myself:
“O Jesus, You have taken time to think about me, and You know me. You know the motives of all my actions, You understand me, the decisions I make and the feelings I have, nothing about me can surprise You. You know me from inside out perfectly. You surround me with a fence and hang up a sign which says, “She is Mine”, and You make restrictions to keep me safe. You affirm me and anoint me. O Your language of love is an impossible height for me to reach. Yet, I cannot hide from Your sight. Even when I may not feel You, the truth is, You are here. You are right here, in my highs and on my lows. You separate the water from the sky, but You never separate Your presence from me. My Father who is in heaven will guide me, and You, His Son, will hold me fast. Even when I am in the darkness, in my depression, You will shine the hope that You have for me. You are weaving me bone to bone, sinew to sinew through your thoughts of me. You created me in Your fearful and wonderful way, and I am now fearfully and wonderfully made. I am not a mistake. You foresaw me perfectly before You began weaving me together in my mother’s womb. My name appeared in Your book as well as my purpose and my days. All the plans you have for me are for good not for evil. O Jesus, Your love is like the sands on the seashore, I cannot measure it. How long You keep me in Your thoughts, and You are still thinking of me now. You are my bridegroom, You rescue me just like a prince who slays the dragon. If You cannot stand to see harm near to me, how could I not burn in my soul for those who mistreat You. O Jesus, You are patient with me and You take me into Your light. Keep me from being deceived and instead live in Your truth. One day, take me with You and keep me in Your everlasting love.”
My dear brothers and sisters, do you desire His love? If you do then I encourage you to not only read His word in order to gain academic knowledge. Instead, seek to know His feelings by knowing His heart for you. Jesus loves you in a way which the world never can.